The Anxiety Chronicles Part I is here.
And Part II – focused on my expat experience here.
As always, remember that I am not a professional qualified for treating anxiety, so what I share here is only my experience and it is by no means designed to replace professional help. I fully encourage you to seek adequate help (and by that I mean a therapist, not some super-life coach who got his diploma from an invented online course. Anxiety and mental issues are not a joke and should be taken seriously and treated accordingly by people trained properly to do so). Also, please take into account that some things you´ll read here may be triggering, so take care with that. ❤
Life for us, the anxious ones, it not particularly easy ever, but December tends to be pretty difficult…
18th of December, especially, is an important trigger for me, marking the absolute final of a horrible and painful experience from my childhood, but also the beginning of my healing journey. I understand how all that seems too general or abstract, but this is all I am able to share for now and my point is that I am high on anxiety these days, more than the usual high, which is very high also 😀
I am sure that I am not the only one feeling a bit (ok, a lot) under the weather, this is why I gathered in this third chapter of The Anxiety Chronicles some interesting and potentially useful resources for us all. And for people standing by us, too – many of them struggling to capture the essence of what is happening 🙂
So, here we go!
I knew about this song for quite a while now, but I am not really sure why I ignored it, although I truly adore Julia Michaels as a person and as a singer. Now that this song arrived in my playlist, it will surely be played on repeat until the end of times. The lyrics are so very relatable. It is a must, please press play and explore it. It truly is a masterpiece:
Ways in which we torture ourselves – do they sound familiar?
Lexie was one my favorite Grey’s characters (and that is a great accomplishment, I assure you, she was competing with people nicknamed McSteamy and McDreamy, sooo…. 🙂 ). The actress has a powerful story to share – so very important when famous people do this, big like for her courage and willingness to help:
It’s OK to not be OK. And it’s incredibly important to reach out. Be willing to let your guard down a little bit to be able to find that community. And also know that if you’re really struggling that there are so many resources.Chyler Leigh
Some random, but important Instagram posts (highly likely I’ll repeat and re-post, these are accounts I follow and adore and I truly find them helpful):
And, to up the good vibes just a little bit:
And these dresses are amazing, checking them out improved one of my panic attacks (an easy one and I surely don’t recommend checking social media when you are feeling bad, but it can be an option, sometimes):
Now, this was just part of my collection of “survival stuff”, which I gathered in years of pain and chaos and struggles. Under no circumstances am I saying that your anxiety will disappear if you read my article or if you check endless Instagram posts. No, in fact some of them can be dangerous, because I am really sick and tired of reading how positive thinking will cure anything and how anxious people are just imagining things or depression is something we bring upon ourselves with our way of acting.
I am not suggesting playing games with something as serious as your mental health. I am strongly recommending that you find a good therapist and start your guided journey and then carefully choose what brings you little calm or a pinch of joy. Hopefully some things gathered here can do the trick for you, if not just ignore me and my chronicles.
I’ll be back, though. :)… Once I have something relevant to add on this topic.
Meanwhile, take care of yourself and try having a Christmas centered on your well being, for a change. Christmas should not mean hurting and exposing yourself to situations and people that harm you just for the sake of it. Think about it and act accordingly.